| I honestly can say that I have never once had emotions like this.
I’m sad, and I can’t be happy about the school year ending, and summer coming.
This is different, everything is different. All I want to do is sleep in my bed and cry myself to sleep. I met a friend that truly means the world to me. We became best friends. She was the only one for me throughout the entire school year. She’s not coming back to OC, and she lives in Ohio. Therefore, I’m only going to get to see her like once, twice at the most, a year. As apposed to everyday for eight months. I’m sad about leaving everyone else, but April was with me the entire year and I won’t get to see her everyday next school year, like I will everyone else. I honestly didn’t know that it would hurt this bad, and I just assumed the best, and that everything would work out. Now I realize a real world situation… you can make the best friends, and they can be gone in the blink of an eye. April really has become one of my BEST friends. Today it hit me hard. We were listening to an old Jewel song in the car and the words sang, “Dreams last for so long, even after you’re gone”. It made me realize how close you can get to someone in such a short period of time. God has given me the opportunity to make such close friends, while still keeping those that are dear to my heart back home. I never realized how owch my heart would feel. It feels empty, because I think everyone will agree with me when I say, we have become like one huge family. We eat together, we go to devo’s together, we laugh together, we live together, we hangout together, we love each other. I never realized how truly hurt I would be and how much I’m going to miss everyone. I love all of you, but the person I really will miss the most, knows who she is. I love you so much friend, and I’m going to miss you being there for me when I need you the most. You were there for me when I had roommate problems, when I thought my dad was going to have another kid, you were there for me when he took Ashley away from me, you were there for me when he wouldn’t let me go see Aunt Ruth, you were there with me to drive all the way to Arkansas. We have been through so much, and I defiantly can’t wait to see you over summer break. It’s going to be a long one, without you by my side… and its going to seem like its ridiculously lame. I know you’ll miss the trips to sonic, since you don’t have any there, and the many trips to Wal*Mart, to buy who knows what, but you’ll have to hold back you’re sadness and think about how much money you’re saving. I’m sorry for the couple times we fought, how lame was that? I honestly can say I don’t know what I’m going to do without you there for me. I love you so much, and you mean the world to me. I’m ALWAYS here for you, no matter the distance. P.S. now Nathan and I might be changing the phone differences. Okayyyy? OH YEAH, and JACK JOHNSON just came on(: i missed you the second I walked out the door and got in my car. |
